Gather Ye Rosebuds While Ye May, is a poem about seizing the moment...enjoying the present, doing what you can to make the life you have NOW matter to you. It's the exact opposite of - put off today what you can do tomorrow, no matter how silly small and insignificant it seems now.
None of us know how long we will be able to, as the Romans used to say- Carpe Diem...seize the day, none of us know how long we have to enjoy those things we value, those people we care about, those pets who bring us such joy and those places we yearn for when we aren't able to be there.
Above: one of the places I miss terribly...the Wiltshire Ridgeway and Downs.
Daily life gets in the way, I know. But even those things can be a source of joy if we allow them to be. Even when hanging out the washing ( as I have just done ), I can smile to myself at the beautiful Agapanthus swaying gently under the washing line....and I hang my towels out length ways to prevent the plants getting a bashing. A little thing.
Likewise, I've just dusted the sitting room and picked up every little folderol that means something to me, dusted it and put it back and thought...what a lucky girl I am to have such lovely things around me. Even dusting can be full of memories and fun...who gave me this, where did I buy that, what was this bought to commemorate?
A beautiful early 19th century Coalport compote with applied decoration. An anniversary present from my husband.
I think this state of affairs has been brought home to me more this past 4 months than at any other part of my life. I have been quite poorly. And, along with feeling rotten, I lost the will to be creative. I have a room full of goodies to play with and none of them really made me want to pick them up and use them to make something.
Never in my whole life have I been like this.
The one thing that is usually my solace, one of the reasons for my being, nay the centre of my being, my biggest joy besides my husband and Delphi dog, is music.
Amazingly, that too, went by the by.
I have a
huge collection of CD's - all of them of Classical Music and good two thirds of them Early music, which is my passion.
There they sat in our Canterbury....forlorn and untouched. Stephen has put music on over the past few months...but I haven't. I haven't picked up either of my instruments to play, not a note.
I MUST have been bad.
So it was quite a surprise to find that, along with a bit more energy and less pain, I felt like listening to some music this weekend. And I felt like getting into my studio and messing about with material. My brain has cleared a bit and I have had some new ideas which I will be exploring over the next few weeks....as long as the feeling lasts.
And more than anything, I feel like going out into the world at last and seizing it by the throat and shaking it.
I think it also has something to do with the fact the the Olympics are over ( oh joy! ) It's a real trial to those of us who feel it's been a consummate waste of money, a distraction ( by the Government ) from the realities of life under their neglect and inattention. I'm so glad I don't have a telly.....I might have been tempted to watch the opening and closing ceremonies....and of course, critisice and moan about it. My friends however have been telling me about the ceremonies and I have to say my reaction was " oh dear how kitsch ".
The sport? Goodness me never....I'd be bored rigid.
And now we find that the Government are going to spend Millions of Pounds in schools ( millions we do not have for the Health Service nor the roads...nor a thousand other things which annoy us all when they are underfunded,) to promote sport.
But they don't fund music. Oh how glad I am that I am not at school now.
I did music beyond A level. I didn't have to do sport. I gave it up when I was about 8. I found it pointless, brainless ( mostly ) and unfeminine. Team games bored me. I am not and never have been a team player. I have also never been interested in the sensations of movement necessary for pushing my body to do something it doesn't really want to do. I am much happier creating something...having something to show for the time and effort, expended, be that a
thing or a
sound as in music. I am, I suppose a cerebral person, not a physical one.
There must be millions like me.
And now they are going to force them all to do something they don't want to do because we have had an OLYMPICS in Britain and they tell us that there's a feel good factor associated with it.
Another distraction technique I think!
Dearie me.... why can't they concentrate on
Education. Those that would like to go and kick a ball around, throw a spear at something, beat someone else's face to a pulp, mess about in or on the water can do that when they have learned to READ and WRITE, have absorbed some general knowledge ( sadly lacking at the moment I fear), have learned how to go out into the world and be a good employee or a good boss. We are constantly hearing about how the present young ( in particular ) workforce is unfit for public consumption. We have all had, I'm sure examples of this right under I nose as we go about our life.
So if Britain were ever to win the Eurovision song contest. :) Would music be bumped up the curriculum...would we see everyone being compulsorily channelled into playing the Tuba or learning to read music?
I know that crafts are still taught in schools and as we know, there is a huge upsurge in people making things at home today, as evinced by the proliferation of Craft magazines on the shelves. Everything from making models with matchsticks to macrame. Thank Heavens for that creative cultivation.
Long may it reign.
I was asked a while back by a muscled young man in his early twenties, if would like to enrol in his gym. If I'd like to spend money ( which frankly I don't have ), to have him put me through my paces on this machine and that.
My answer....and I told him, I am lady of a certain age...and I stress the LADY who wouldn't be seen dead in a gym.
My answer..... So you train your body to its ultimate pitch. Do you also train your mind? Do you read, do you discover, for example, culture, history ( for as far as I am concerned without history, we cannot know where we are now and cannot avoid the pratfalls our ancestors made. ( I think Sir Winston Churchill said something profound on this subject ). Then, when...like me, your body develops something nasty which you couldn't have avoided by being 'sporty', active and trained in a gym, and you only have your mind to fall back on,.......then what are you going to do with yourself?
Too little...too late.
So I shall grab it whilst I can.
For none of us knows........